“Yeah, I don’t think a date is a good
idea, Alex. Don’t get me wrong! You seem like a really nice
guy but I just got out of a long relationship and I just don’t
know.” (Read Related : Broken Heart Quotes) - Five Years Later - “Please don’t do this to me, Alex. Please
don’t go.” I never left that emergency room. The nurses brought my food with Alex’s even though he was unconscious most the time. I never took my eyes off him except when I slept. People came and went. They include family members, friends, friends of friends and friends of family. It seemed to hit them all pretty hard as they didn’t usually deal with this kind of pain. However, it’s different for me as I had lost many loved ones in my lifetime though it was not all necessarily to death. Sometimes I don’t understand why it happens but I know God has a purpose. He always has and he always will. Nevertheless, this is something you can never get used to and the pain never lessens. It’s always hard to let go especially when you don’t expect it. It’s been three months since we got the news about Alex. He will go anytime soon to a better place but I can’t bear to watch him go. I cried more than I have ever cried in my life. I knew it is all going to end in a matter of days, hours or maybe seconds. I held on to Alex with all I had left, refusing to let him go. I couldn’t let go even if he did. I planned on staying that way for as long as I could. I would have held on to him forever if I could. (Read Related : Story of Love) Alex died the next day. There were more tears, more pain and
more sleepless nights. I tried to tell myself not to worry and
to be happy for him but it was never convincing. I used to think
it was only hard when I was young and it would be easier when
I grew older but here I am still stuck in the same painful endless
cycle at aged twenty-five. I grieved for months and people thought
I was in such a deep depression that I would never be the old
me again. They were right. I was never the same after that but
the weird thing was instead of losing hope like most people do,
I gained more faith than ever before. I don’t know why but
I realized that God is the only way out of this suffering. I thought
about the verse Alex had said when we first met five years ago
in the grocery store. I looked it up and read the whole thing. That verse was very special to me and it was actually the main reason why Alex and I started dating. I missed him so much. Tears streamed down my face. I didn't think I would have any left but I did. I was running out of food even though I barely ate anymore so I went to the grocery store. I decided I would go to a different grocery store from the one where it all began. I would go to the one close to home, the one where it all ended. My Happy Ending Part 1 | 2 | 3 | 4
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