Leaf During Pre-University days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that it takes a lot of courage for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long. During the three years of Pre-University, I was on very close terms with a guy. We were not in a relationship but were best buddies. However, when he had his first girlfriend, I learned to develop a new feeling I should never have learned - Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be described by using a lemon. It felt like a hundred rotten sour lemons. It was sourness at the extreme limit. They were only together for two months. When they broke up, I hid my strong sense of happiness. It was short lived as he got together with another girl within a month’s time. (Read Related : Unrequited Love Poems) I like him and I know he likes me. However, why won't he pursue me? Since he loves me, why didn't he make the first move? Whenever he has a new girlfriend, my heart will hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I started to suspect that this is a one-sided love. If he doesn't like me, why does he treat me so well? He’s niceness is beyond what you will normally do for a friend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I know his likes and his habits but I can never figure out his feelings towards me. You can't expect me to confront him right? Despite that, I still want to be by his side. I wanted to care for him, accompany him and love him. I hoped that one fine day, he will love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night and waiting for him to sms me. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Hence, I waited for him. The three years were the hardest to go through and I really wanted to give up. Sometimes, I wonder if I should continue waiting. The pain, the hurt and dilemma accompanied me for three years. (Read Related : Propose SMS) At the end of my third year, a second year junior started to pursue after me. He pursues me relentlessly everyday. It came to a point where my feelings towards him changed from outright rejection to being willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm and gentle wind, trying to blow a Leaf away from the Tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind only a small footing in my heart. I know this Wind will bring this badly battered Leaf far away to a better land. Finally, I left Tree but Tree only smiled and didn't ask me to stay. Leaf’s departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay. Tree, Leaf and Wind Part 1 | 2 | 3
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